“To feel the love of people whom we love is a fire that feeds our life.”
~ Pablo Neruda
By Catherine Austin Fitts
I spoke to a colleague last week. We had not spoken for a year or more. Each time I speak with him we grow apart.
I remember when I first met him. He was full of light and laughter. He was a gifted, talented man. He was a caring, generous man.
He felt compelled to provide alternatives to the falsehoods that abound around us. So he gave of his time and talents. Over time, I saw him drained by what he saw going on around him and his efforts to do something about it. He carried the burden well.
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The last few times I have spoken with him, he is not the man I knew. He no longer lives in a higher mind. Now there is cynicism. Time is stretched; corners are cut.
The slow burn and debasement is wearing us down. The media is teaching human denigration at every turn. Many people who are appalled at the corruption have become cynical. The behavior of the alternative media these days can be as unproductive and misleading as the corporate media.
Being against something that is wrong does not relieve us of the responsibility to strive to be excellent; to create and provide that which is life-giving; to care for the land, for ourselves and for each other.
The moment that I realized what is happening to my colleague, I realized that it is happening to me, it is happening to people around me.
What can I do to return and stay in a higher mind?
I confess, this is one of the reasons that I live in the country. I can close the door and listen to hours of the great composers and read all day and all night. I can converse with cows, horses and trees but rarely see another person unless I seek them out.
There is something about avoiding places full of people who are frenetic or fearful that helps me remain coherent. Where I live there are few seeking social prestige or economic advantage, there being so little available for miles around. My neighbors and I enjoy our lives, tucked away in a corner of the world.
If we lose our virtues and we fall into a lower mind, then what will happen to our love?
Love is what must be nourished and preserved at all costs, even on days when someone you once loved leaves your life.
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I love the honesty of this post. I think it is easy to fall to our lower selves over time. The dark keeps battering us. By keeping our connections with our teachings and our important friends and communities we can help ourselves from falling into the abyss of projection and negativity. I use the spirit of Solari to keep me informed and yet I can stay out of the anger and sadness that can follow when I read only the problems in the world. So keep up these posts and the heartfelt honesty. They really help.
And sometimes we can move beyond our old friends by raising our consciousness and love. Some of my old friends just would not move into love. They too need my love but sometimes I have needed to just move on.
Thanks again for this post.
Kita:
That is one of my favorite Cohen lyrics – There are many Cohen lyrics that do a marvelous job of explaining our circumstances.
One of my friends had a system of studying and extolling one Virtue a week. When I read your post, it reminded me of it and I e-mailed her for the name of it.
Some of us on the Solari team start off each weekday morning with a prayer. That helps as do sermons at the churches I attend and CDs I listen to in the car.
I have been reading the Pistis Sophia and will be attending a workshop in Italy on it this fall. I have not finished, but it has helped the most of all.
My intuition for me – not for everyone – has always been that the pathway was to walk straight into the heart of darkness seeing it squarely for what it is.
Back to my what my pastor said long ago – “If we can face it, God can fix it.”
The pea soup of denial is what seems to bog me down the most.
I really appreciate this discussion. We are trying to invent a way of understanding this – and options to move forward. I appreciate the help,
Catherine